Tuesday, October 21, 2008

he hasn't left me

We have had a difficult month. It is hard to believe that it has just been three months…in some ways, it seems like three years. I just read that the third month after a traumatic occurrence is particularly hard. I believe it. This has been a hard month.

Today I was reading the last email I received from Kathy. It was sent the day before she got sick. She sounded so “normal.” How could we have even guessed that life was going to take such a turn…that it was going to be turned upside down and inside out? I remember reading one time that if we knew what the future held, we would not be able to enjoy the present. I suppose that is true, but I would have liked to have had a chance to tell my sister what she means to me…how much she has helped me…and how much I miss her…how much I love her.

I pulled a scripture out of my Bible that Brookie gave me at the beginning for the summer. She wrote it for me by hand. I planned to use it for my promise for the summer. At the time, I had no idea what that would mean....The scripture is Deuteronomy 31:6 It says:
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified …for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
Thank you, Lord, for this promise. You sent it to me before this horrible thing happened in my life, but now I have it to remember…you have not left.