Saturday, May 2, 2009

somewhere down the road

“So much pain and no good reason why
You’ve cried until the tears run dry
And nothing else can make you understand
The one thing that you held so dear
Is slipping from your hand
And you say
Why, why, why
Does it go this way
Why, why, why?”

(Amy Grant, “Somewhere down the Road.”)

So many unexpected things happen in life. Many of them are kinds of death….the death of a life, the death of a marriage, the death of a relationship; the end of a dream, the end of a friendship, the end of a career; someone leaving, someone moving, someone changing; something taken, something lost, something misconstrued…all death…all having to say good-bye to an old way, a comfortable way…moving from the known to the unknown.

“Why, why, why?” I have found that my God is not angered or intimidated by my “whys.” Back when the twins first got sick, I thought about this a lot. I asked “why” many times. Why do such hard, painful things happen to some people? Why did God “choose” certain people for their particular trials…why did He allow the things that happened to them, to happen?

Through it all, I have concluded that God does not “pick” trials for people…life just happens to all of us…sometimes, our genes determine what happens…sometimes our choices determine what happens…at other times, the choices of other people determine what happens to us. Life happens to us because we are humans, living the human experience. God, in his infinite demonstration of love, gave us, humans, choice. In doing that, He gave us control of things that, at times, we don’t have the good judgement to control (Remember Adam and Eve and their choices… remember me and some my choices?).

So “why, why, why?” I’ve come to the conclusion that Isaiah 55:8 says it best:
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord.”

The important truth I have learned is that I do not have the where-with-all to understand it all. I do not have the answers…but HE does. When I trust him, he can work it all out, and he’ll work it out for my ultimate well-being.

So “… all I can say
Somewhere down the road
There’ll be answers to the questions
Somewhere down the road
Though we cannot see it now
And somewhere down the road
You will find mighty arms reaching for you
And they will hold the answers at the end of the road.”

thank you, Lord,


Mary said...

. . for all of us that are hurting so bad, thank you for your words, today!

Chao said...

yeah, I can really relate to the story because once in my life I questioned God why it happened to me.
That was after I knew about the result of my Nursing Board Examination, which I failed. Prior in the exam, I made great things with God, I went to many churches especially those that are miraculous ones, I prayed so much, many people had prayed for my success...., I was confidently 95% that I could pass but sad to say, I wasn't able to pass.... I asked "why, why"?... God! It's so unfair when you let some of my classmares passed the Boards when I know they're not soing good during the review. I know their capacity and they're not that good though.

After that, I realized it was not our plans that are followed. I understand His plans for me and I certainly accept it as my destination to my success in life. I asked for wisdom James 1:5 "If any of you lack WISDOM, you should PRAY to GOD, who will give it to you, because GOD gives generously and graciously to all." and he gave me that. Now, I'm happy with what I have and continue to treasure each God's plan in my life's endeavor. Thanx for inspiring!