Friday, June 26, 2009


On this day, one year ago, Kathy said her last word. She breathed her last breath, on her own. Her eyes closed for the last time. She had her last earthly worry. She formulated her last plans. Then it was over.

A Bebo Norman CD was in Kathy’s car CD player. The song, “Always,” was probably one of the last songs she listened to. It speaks to me, in this sad place I have found myself. These are some of the words:

“Friend I don't know where you are
And I don't know where you've been
Maybe you're fighting for your life
Or just about to throw the towel in
But if you're crying out for mercy
If there's no hope left at all
If you've given everything you've got
And you're still about to fall
…hold on, hold on, hold on
(because) I believe always always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all faith is gone
God knows our pain and His promise remains
Always, Always
He will be with you always.”

I believe that God was with her through all this…and I believe he ushered her into his presence and gathered her to him with the love of all eternity.

As Psalm 73:23 says:

"Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand."

I believe God is with us now, in this pain, and He is with us always.