how to say goodbye

In a couple of weeks, we will be at the one year…what do you call it…anniversary…death day (like birthday)…of our Kathy? How can we even begin to think about, verbalize, or express what has transpired in the past year? My heart is feeling heavy again…I haven’t been feeling that way latetly, but I suppose I have more time to think about it, since school is out, and I feel like I’m suffocating again.

I have heard Michael W. Smith’s song, “How to Say Goodbye,” several times lately. It is actually talking about when a child grows up and moves on with his life, but it reminds me of the goodbye I’m still trying to say to my baby sister (she was actually a lot like a daughter to me)….These are some of the words:

“Tell me how to fill the space you left behind
And how to laugh instead of cry
And how to say goodbye
Here I stand
Arms open wide
I've held you close
Kept you safe
Till you could fly

Tell me where the road ahead is gonna bend
And how to harness up the wind
And how to say goodbye.”

How do you say goodbye?
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